day after

inside the liquor store
you buy a can of soda
and a can of tomato soup.
you come home to an empty
apartment.
you heat the stove and stir,
but only occasionally.
it's the day after Christmas
but there's nowhere
you need to be.

that's okay.

you empty the soup
into a bowl and
wait until it's cold.

walking in the sun

open the door,
walk outside.
feel the sun on your arms as you
light a cigarette.
walk with a weight in your step.
never shave, let it all grow.
see beautiful girls on the street-
pass them by
but never look.
exhale death, smoke
the color of
concrete jungle
as you
walk alone,
as flowers die
as yellow weeds grow.
you drop a cigarette,
but there is no one
to notice.
you've become invisible.
you're not like them.
the police officers
the homeless
the beggars or
the liquor store owners.
the sun sets
as the bars begin to fill.
in the restaurants there are people
sitting and eating
comfortably.
a waiter comes to a young couple
as I look through
a large glass
window.
these are the lucky ones,
I think,
who got it good
with the cupid's arrow.
something inside me dies for a moment.

but only for a moment.

Officer White

I wait for the day a

White

POLICE OFFICER

pulls me over for
being Hispanic
or for a broken
tail-light.

I will draw a gun and
shoot him
straight
into the head.

watch the blood soak
outside the skin
and into the
dirt.

the white officer,
officer
Jones or
officer Smith
or officer White.

no officer Garcia's or Mendez
or Lopez.

Officer White will
die with his head laying
flat
against
the pavement.

Officer White will
handcuff you,
put you in the back of his car
without an explanation,
draw a gun and
threaten you-

but not you,

you will kill officer White.

officer White can shoot you and
come home for
dinner
at the end of the day.

officer White can fuck his wife
and tell her
about all the niggers
and the spics
he arrested
that day
for not having the same
rights as
him.

Officer White will pepper spray
college students.

Officer White will tase
college students.

Officer White will pull down tents
from Occupy Wall-street
protesters
and Officer White will
prevent
Students
from entering School's
in Birmingham, Alabama
with hoses
from the Fire Department
in the 1960's.

Officer White will vote
Republican and the
Sheriff
will run for office.

Officer White will beat
Rodney King
on the side of the highway and
Officer White
will be on an episode of Cops
when arresting a drug-addict
Vietnam Vet.

Officer White was a Marine and
Officer White was in Iraq and Afghanistan.

Officer White is White and White is as
Black as night
as the bullet goes
through the head
and outside
the skull
to create the peace
that they so solemnly
swore
to protect.

murder

here I am 

again

fury in the heart

and 

in the brain 

blood

seething

through the veins

and into a new-found wisdom

through the chaos.

the fiery depths of hell 

have been well-traveled by those

deeply 

entombed

among

graves.

they are the hero's 

and the 

teachers 

and the

recipients of the Gods

but tonight-

there is a much greater

freedom

to be had

and I am here,

alone with 

whatever is killing me

and with

whatever is

killing you

and together we will

create

murder,

homicide,

or maybe

nothing at all.